The first reason I will get to in a bit as it is why I am actually writing this blog. The second reason - What else am I going to do with this dress? It's not like I have this desire for my daughter to hopefully wear my dress on her wedding day - not to mention it will probably be out of style by then anyway (even though I feel my dress is super awesome). The third reason - WHY NOT?!?!?!
|Channeling my inner "Bo Derek"|
I chose to trash my dress mainly because I needed to. I needed to do something to signify letting go of some of the things that went on before, during and after my wedding day. My wedding was beautiful, don't get me wrong, but what I found out after the fact kind of tarnished my memories. Thank God I did not know these things before or during my wedding because the day probably wouldn't have happened or certain people who are important to both Ryan & me would not have been allowed to be there. We all know how important it is to have those we are close to & love to be there on such a significant day as a wedding so that would have been so difficult if that was the case.
Looking back on that day and those leading up to it, I see all of the signs that I should have noticed. These people, whom I love dearly, hid certain things from a lot of us. Maybe more people knew what was going on & I was just too ignorant to see it, I don't know. I just wish things were different. My wedding day - it was amazing, I had a wonderful time, things didn't go perfectly - which is okay, I'm married which is all that really matters....but learning things after the fact have made certain aspects of my wedding day tarnished. Special parts of it that are supposed to be the best moments of your wedding....tarnished.
Trashing my dress was a release.....a release of all these feelings I've been keeping bottled inside me since I learned of these things. It was therapeutic even. I am hoping I can move on from these tarnished memories & have a "re-wedding day" on our 5 year anniversary. Just a little renewing of our vows, something little. I feel I deserve it - yes, I said that...I deserve it. Some may think I'm crazy when I say that because, truly, my wedding day was gorgeous - but I think those who are involved and know what I am talking about may understand what I mean when I say that.
I think all brides should "Trash the Dress" - even if you don't have a reason to like I did....because it was so much fun despite almost drowning a couple times and being completely sore from trying to channel my inner Bo Derek. :)
There you have it.....the reason I "Trashed the Dress".
I do need to add - I am in love with these pictures. I do not say that to "toot my own horn" because I honestly never in a million years felt like I could look the way I do in these pictures. Especially after having 2 kids and seeing my body morph into a giant blob with skin that looks like a road map from all the stretch marks. I've had my fair share of days in which I have felt nobody could/did find me pretty. If I ever feel the slightest bit ugly or unattractive all I have to do is look at these pictures and I will feel like a supermodel again. I can't thank our photographer enough, Joshua McCoy, for allowing me to be a part of this. It was amazing in so many ways. I may have been sore for 5 days after because apparently swimming in your wedding dress is extremely tiring for your muscles, but it was SO worth it.
|This is by far my favorite picture|